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Some days feel heavier than others, and that's okay. You don't have to have it all figured out — just showing up here, even quietly, counts for something. If you're carrying something today, you're not alone in this space.

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I can relate lately things have been hard, so at the end of the shift you feel like home is the last place you want to be so you decide to hang with peer (friends) for sometime so that you just take sleep home , that way a few beers may sleep in but if you managed to be consistent for the 5 months one draw back down the road doesn’t mean that’s how it’s going to be going on forward . The next step I think is to avoid situations that put you in the position to do that again.

Hey Nameless, Thanks for sharing more. It sounds very lonely and frustrating to feel like you're walking on eggshells in your own home, especially on a day like Valentine's. I can hear how exhausted and 'done' you are. Okelele's point about postpartum really stands out to me, even more so after reading your last message. Spending all day in the bedroom with the baby, the withdrawal, the sudden accusations-these can be classic signs of postpartum depression or anxiety. It doesn't excuse locking you out, but it might explain the 'why' behind her behavior. She might be struggling just as much as you are, but in a different, invisible way. I know you said therapy is expensive and feels uncomfortable, but maybe there's a middle ground. Could you start by talking to our trusted counsellors here on DigiBonga or a religious leader together? Sometimes framing it as 'I'm worried about us and I'm worried about you' can open a door that anger can't. Moving out might feel like the only answer right now, but leaving a wife who might be suffering from a serious medical condition like PPD could have heavy consequences for her and your daughter. Please, before you make a decision, try to get to the bottom of what's really going on with her. You both deserve that. Also, I want to offer a little perspective from experience: year 3 is notoriously hard for many marriages, and it’s even tougher with a firstborn. That’s when the reality of responsibility sets in, childhood fades away, and the seriousness of life hits. I struggled in year 3 myself after we had our firstborn. It doesn’t make the pain any less real, but I hope it helps to know your situation isn’t unique- and it is possible to come through it.

I am open to listening and sharing experiences from the Counselling world. Let us keep talking.

I think its possible to single but not lonely..That urge can be compensated with family and friends .Being in social places and meeting like minded individuals can keep you going. Truth is in this century relationships have become so transactional and selfish .